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huhuhu.. aq dan TVXQ

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Huhu sudah lame rasenyer aku tinggalkan laptop neh.. huhu.. oke2 aq nak cte mamc maner aku leh jadi obsess tahap gaban, tahap dewa karma kat TVXQneh.. artis korea lor..
Alkisah , pade ketika itu… hati ku neh dalam keadaan xtenteram yelah bru dikecewakan.. huhu.. sadis.. aku oke.. cume hari2 yang aq lalu macm suram macm kejujuran dalam gurau senda tuh xder.. tapi aq truskan gak.. nak idup kter kne tabah… tambahan pule hal neh kecik jer pown… dan tbe2.. kawan sheera,,, dtg kat kolej mmbawe aura korea.. ade mulenye aq nan sheera macm pandng juling jerk at artis korea neh.. sbb ktorang x paham sgt bahase dyorang… lau drama tuh leh tahan ag.. sbb ade subtitle kan.. kawan sheera neh.. macm syok kat Wonder Girls.. ktorang pown.. follow jela flow dye.. lame2 ktorang yang cm trikut sbb tarian diorang syok.. x lame kmudian aq diperkenalkan dgn TVXQ,,, oleh sheera.. mule2 macm x suke.. sbb lau kat MEsia,, artis mcmneh blagak.. pastu lame2.. stelah ktorang memproses vdeo2 dyorang nmpnye.. sangkaan torang meleset.. diorang beda sekali..
TVXQ neh bg aq.. unik.. diorang sgtla telus.. diorang sngtla iklas dan amat menghargai kasih syg peminat… ikatan ukhuwah antara member2 dyorang pown sgtla kukuh… even dyorang nak wat single solo pown.. dyorang still bekerjesama… tu yang aq sgt kagum ngan artis korea… xksah la sape2.. even dalam talk show dyorang.. diorang jujur… macm x pure2 x cover…macm mane la. Aq nak support artis mesia.. sbb xder sorang pown yang mcm deme.. ade pown minority.. gossip jer penuh.. bju pown mcm x cukup kain.. huhu..
Smbung blik kisah aq… jadi stat pertengahan bulan 3 kowt ktorang mcm sgt obsess ngan TVXQ.. sheera la dok ngutip cter aq dok suppprt laptop jela huhu.. sunukla.. balik kelas jer pasng cter dyorang.. makan pown tgok cter diorang.. even kadang2 nak stady pown kne dengar suare diorang… selepas berape2 minggu dlm keadaan mcm neh.. hati aq tenang.. sgale pasaan gelap aq hilang.. hdup aq terisi… diorang mmg pemangkin smgt aq…rase macm bersyukur Tuhan temukan aq ngan diorang… huhu..
Pelik kan tapi btol la fan2 diorang ckp TVXQ kadang2 memberi smgt hdup… keseronokan mnonton mereka.. keasyikan melihat wajah2 mereka.. membuat kan aq alpa tentang dunia aq dan mmbuat aq berpikir luar dri kotak… huhu… itulah ksah aq dan TVXQ.. aq suke YUNHO.. huhu..hua…
Yunho tukan..
Badan dye sgt lah hot…Wah…1 dlam seribu… susah nak cri.. mule2 aq tgok yunho neh mcm sumbung yelah..
Mamat hotkan..Lau kat mesia dah bangge sial dah.. aq mule2 suke yunho.. dan aq amt macm x suke micky.. sebb dye mcm lembb.. tapilame2 kedudkan dah berubah pas yunho aq suke micky.. hehe. Yunho dah la tinggi kuat stamina… kat la… suke sport.. hehehe.. shame2… micky pown same… hehe.. kayu tge lak.. tapi yunho tuh.. byk la aq respek.. dye dri org sush.. be dah bjaye.. dye x pnah malu nak tonjolkan diri dye yang sebenar.. setiap talkshow.. dye pasti telus berbicare.. hahaha.. dah la suke act comel.. suke adoh ngan xiah.. sbb xiah suke ngade2.. haha.. yunho opaa.. kaki dye ble manari sgtla sharp.. huhuh,,, gler aq senget tgok dye… memgla.. vler dah sangap amcm neh… aq mulelar.. nak mencari lelaki yang persis dye.. hioefully I get it.. mmg full ah hati aq suke dye… bak kater org jawe..”kebek”.. hahaha…. TVXQ.. I always show my love to you.. even you wont ask for it.. I will give it totali full

my heart trembling!!

Because im so foolish, I know only you
(yes I know only u..when people(boy) try to close to me,I’ll make he clear that I love and u r the only one in my heart..i am your’s..)
You who are looking at someone else
(but the sad things,is u r not with me…u r hepily live ur life with someone else…)
You probably don’t know my heart
(im too afraid to tell my feeling toward u.bcoz im afraid of losing you!!)
There is no me in you’re day
(I know alredi that im nothing to you..everyday im waiting for u..)
Probably not even in you’re memories
(even we are friend for a long time..i am not even in ur heart,not even in your mind to memory..)
But im looking at only you
(even there is people that can love me as what I am.but its only u can make me hapi..)
As my tears continue to fall
(u r the man that makes me cried a lot..even its not even 100 ml the amount..but it still my tears..)
I’m happy with looking at you’re back figure
(even looking u from far,or even ur pic,the handsome n ugly one..im still happy..no matter what..even looking at ur footprint..can makes me smile like no tomorrow..)
Though you still don’t know my heart
(u can say that im chicken or what so ever..i still don’t want confess to him!!NEVER!!!)
Though at the end you’ll just brush me away
(yes I know im nothing to you..)
The days that I miss you so much
(I cant do anything but just looking at ur pic and smile alone myself..cry alone..)
The days when its too hard to bear
(sometimes its hard to face the fact that I love u so much…I cried a lot..my heart is fade!!)
The word I love you are dancing on my lips
(I just know what love is when I know you..)
Once again, alone , crying for you
(u’ll never know that I cried for u!!stupid ass!!)
Baby I love you I’m waiting for you..
(waiting is cruel,but I love that..waiting for u..to reply my messages..)
There is no me in you’re day
( r u too busy to think of me???me every nano seconds cant bear to not think of u!!how pathetic!)
Probably not even in you’re memories
( ur brain is that small!!even we are not making so much memories..but how can u..i know im nothing!!)
But I’m looking at only you.
(there are a lot of handsome n macho n kiut man around me..but I just cant forget about u..)
Making memories by myself
(im making my own memories alone..by think of u,by looking at ur pix )
To me love is like a beautiful wound
(yes its hard.pain n crazy,,I face to many pain when I start love u..but I just hapi to just love u that much)
Even though I see you’re pretty smile
(I can see ur smile.laughing with ur fren but..)
I can’t smile with you
(im just can look at u in a distance..very2 long distance)
Bye bye, never say goodbye
(please don’t say this word..never say goodbye)
Though I can’t hold onto you
(I cant be with u..i know it..u r too much for me..u have everything but me??just stupid gal..)
I need you, I can’t say anything else
(I cant say anything just love u for what u r…n love u from the distance..)
I want you,I’ll wish and wish again
(I’ll pray that one day u r be mine..u;ll accept me for what I am..)
The days when you fill up my thought
(everyday my mind will fill with u…just u..)
The days when my heart grows cold and I’m sad
(but even im hepi too love u..sometimes I fell pathetic to myself..)
The word I miss you are dancing on my lips..
(missing u is pain but just love to do it..over…n over again…never failed to miss u positive infinity much)

MY LOVE STORY!

read this lyrics.
it totally about my love to him!!!

Because im so foolish, I know only you
You who are looking at someone else
You probably don’t know my heart
There is no me in you’re day
Probably not even in you’re memories
But im looking au so much only you
As my tears continue to fall
I’m happy with looking at you’re back figure
Though you still don’t know my heart
Though at the end you’ll just brush me away
The days that I miss you so much
The days when its too hard to bear
The word I love you are dancing on my lips
Once again, alone , crying for you
Baby I love you I’m waiting for you..
There is no me in you’re day
Probably not even in you’re memories
But I’m looking at only you.
Making memories by myself
To me love is like a beautiful wound
Even though I see you’re pretty smile
I can’t smile with you
Bye bye, never say goodbye
Though I can’t hold onto you
I need you, I can’t say anything else
I want you,I’ll wish and wish again
The days when you fill up my thought
The days when my heart grows cold and I’m sad
The word I miss you are dancing on my lips..

this is song that make me cry alone in the morning!
yes...bcoz im stupid!!!!

MY LOVE

DONG BANG SHIN KI a.k.a TOHOSHINKI

Group ni baru je aku n ct knai..tak sampai setaun bulan lagi.tapi kami da fanatik betoi kat deme ni..1st things yng buat kami terarik kat group ni sbb group ni sangat la berkharisma ble perfom..tapi ble talk show deme,deme sangat la funny n tulus..aku stat suke bile adik sdare aku soh cri vid dbsk kat utube.mle2 aku malehla nk cari..sbb siyes aku ckp aku tak minat sgt korea ni..sbb aku bajet orng korea mcm dme ni bakat tade la sngat..juz arap muke comel deme jew..tapi ble aku da cri aku tertengok cite DANGEROUS LOVE banjun drama dme..cite tu mcm lawak sikit..aku pon tgk2 aku terminat la sikit..aku try cri banjun drama dme lagi..ekceli dme ni bukan plakon but penyanyi yng sangat talented..mle2 tgk,cukup susa la aku nk ingat nme dme..pastu aku balik m3x..aku sembang2 dm bilik sal group ni..rumet aku de mmbe ni..mmg da lme la fanatik kat dbsk..huhu..pastu ak tnye la dme ade tak vid pape sal dbsk..pastu dme ade la 1st tour,and MVC mirotic..alagu dr 4th album dme..kire latest gak la..mse mle2 knai aku taw lagu dme tuh jew..dlm mvc tuh mreke sangat la hot n bertenage..pakej dme yng ade sangat teror menari n bule menyanyi..1st aku tertarik kat changmin n jaejoong..sbb muke dme..kat tngge last micky..haha..sian micky..pastu da hampir 2-3 kali aku tgok cite dang love ak terperasan kecomelan junsu oppa..mmg dlm tuh dy mcm love seeker..pantang nmpak pompuan..tapi dy tetap dah menarek perhatian ku..150%..totalli..so aku amek decision aku meminati XIAH JUNSU..mse tuh mmg minat junsu la..sume bnde junsu..junsu..xiah..junsu..xiah..haha..
tade yng lain..hnye die...pastu semakin bnyak la cite dbsk,MVC,and talk show deme ni..
berdozen2 da tgok..soo.hati mmg maken terpikat kat junsu..n pe yng klaka nye..aku trot meminati micky yoochun di tangge ke due..haha..followed by yunho..hee..micky ni..mmg tgok kind of casanova..yes he is..jeajoong yng ckap...not me..hehe..so micky tarik perhatian akuble he like to act cute..sbb he so manly,look matured,,but ekceli he is too cute to resist..ehehe..kalu aku mencari gamba dbsk..aku akn crik junsu mmg yng mle2 la..2nd micky 3rd uknow..hehehe.hero n max..tak tentu..mmm,bukan aku tak ske deme..but just..aku terlalu suke kat 3-3 mreke ni..ermm..tu je la..nk share sal mreka..ME PROUD AS CASSIOPEA!!!

written by:sheera junsu...

benar aq sayang dya??

Bnar aq syg dia??

Mungkin korang x phm aq neh pompuan mcm ape je kan.. tapi aq nak korang pkr ape senarnye masalh aq…

Budak laki neh aq knal dye lame sgt.. kali ptame aq jumpe dye tyme aq form1.. orientasi waktu form 1.. dye jd tekong nasyid.. sore dye tyme tula sedap sgt… seyes aq mmg mcm terpesona ngan sore tu… memg sedap.. memg aq jatoh hati ngan sore dye.. bukan sebb dye comey ke ape.. tapi sbb sore jer… tapi tyme tu form 1 kan.. aq mals layan pasaan aq.. sbb aq rase tu bende normal.. so aq lepaskan jer… lagipun dye skola laen.. aq truskan khidupan aq..
Masok form 2 aq jdi wakil badminton ngri perak lawan antare negeri…(skola agama jela)… tyme tu ktorang kene quarantine wat latihan berpusat.. aq tyme tu.. bru kali pertama…aq sertai pertandngan mcm tu.. aq mcm x prepair pape la… mlm ktorang nk berangkat ke klantan(lawan kt kelantan) ktorang dihburkan dgn persembhan hadrah.. aq jumpe bdak tu lg.. aq knal sgt sore tu.. seyes aq ingt lg sore dye.. memg tyme tu. Aq perh!!! Pasa’n aq tyme tu mcm neh.. sore tu lagi.. sonoknye dpt dgr.. mcm tula.. dye ngan team dye.. jadi wakil untuk wat persembhan kat klntn…
Sewaktu di klntn.. aq berkwn rapat ngan bdak dri skola dye.. tyme tu aq tnye la member aq tu.. sape name dye.. tyme tu brula aq tau name dye..
Aq pnah berselish ngan dye.. memg angkuh la.. tapi nak wat ape.. dye bukan knal aq pown.. aq je knal dye sbb sore dye.. lepas kat klntn.. aq dah x jumpe dye da.. dye pown mcm da x jadi wakil nasyed… tapi aq tertanye gak.. dye neh x wakil skola tok nasyed ker…
Aq engt lagi tyme tu aq form 5.. aq punyer membr org kuat nased.esok nyer ktorang punyer skola bakal bertempur ngan dye nye skola… kitorang pown sembng2 la.. yang skola dye ade sorang tu sore sedap..snarnye aq mksudkn dye la.. esok nye lepas bertanding aq tgik video dyorang.. aq x nmpk pown dye… aq ckp ngan member aq.. “we hade sorang tu sore dye sedap.. ingat x tyme form 1 dulu dye ade nyanyi” mcm tu la aq ckp ngan member aq tu.. tapi dye x ingat…aq pown yakinkan deme lagi… “seyes sore dye sedap…” kmudian dialog ini berlalu bgitu saje..
After spm.. aq dpt twran ke matrik.. oke.. maybe kat cn rezeki aq.. aq pown masok mcm bese.. kat mtrik aq mmg da niat da nak masok kakom x kesah la game pe.. rase mc snok dpt msok… Alhamdulillah aq dtrime masok team bola tamper.. oke2… kat cn la aq berkenalan ngn mina… tyme tu terkejut gak tau dye budak tuuuuttt.. kui3.. agk lawak tapi no matter la… aq ngan dye same jer pangai.. dalam kesbukkan menjalani lathan nak ke kakom neh.. aq dgar cte ade sorang teammate aq kapel ngan bdk bola.. mule2 aq x heran pastu dyorang cter kt aq.. mule2 aq mcm xknal… tbe2 ade 1 ptg tu.. aq nmpk dye jogging dkt2 ngan court aq.. huih… budak ini.. aq knal.. agak terkejut jugk la.. aq tanye mina.. and mina cter la summer nye.. bru la aq tau rupenye tyme form 5 aq tanye dye.. dye da blah g skola laen.. oke2…
Tyme tu aq tahlah.. aq rase laen.. sbb tahla..sbb baru tau pangai dye… mcm benci gak la attitude dye tyme tu… tiap kali nmpk dye.. msti terkenang tyme aq form 1.. tapi aq let it go la.. tapi aq still amek tau perkembangan dye ngan awek dye gak la… sbb awek dye neh.. agak gdik la. Stelah lame ktorang perhatikan dye tu amatla gdik.. and suke pasan hbt.. oke fine..aq dpt tau tyme kat ngri sembilan dyorang da break… patotla bdak bola sektol pown x sokong xper.. itu aq xheran tapi sbb kan pompuan tula team aq lost..
Spnjang waktu tu.. aq usha jer dye.. aq x wat ape pown.. cumer aq terdetik nak knal ngan dye.. aq try dptkan nombo dye.. and finally I got it… sush juge nak kacau dye neh… garang nak mati kne direct jer.. x leh wat maen.. oke.. kitorang kawan.. aq rajen gak la kontek dye.. tai aq xnak dye anggap aq aek kesmpatan kat dye.. sbb dye baru pas break… aq biarkan jer dye.. ade pnah satu ari aq tanye.. x nak kapel dah ke.. pastu dye kate xnak kapel ngan sape2 dah.. nak focus… nak stady.. oke.. aq hormat keputusan dye.. aq pnah cter kat dye mcm maner aq knal dye… dye tanye nape x gtau awal2.. aq ckp la aq malu la… tapi mmg aq mencari dye.. tapi senyap2 jela.. xde sape tau.. dan aq memg x sangke akan jumpe dye kat mtarik… mugkin sbb aq suke dye.. itu yang ingin aq luahkan tapi da sye ckp xnak dah terlibat lam hbungan yang melibtkan perasaan so, aq maleh la nak ckp..
Tbe2 satu ari neh,, aq nampk dye dating ngan sorang bdak pompuan.. seblum tu aq pnah dgar cter dye ade kapel ngan sorang bdak pomouan.. tapi aq x pcye sbb dye ckp ngan aq da xnk da.. bler aq nmpk ngn mate kple aq sendri.. bru aq pecye.. bertape skt nye hati aq tyme tu.. tuhan jer yang tau.. aq putskan da x nk kontek ngan dye da.. kcik hati aq.. jumpe ngan dye pown aq wat bodo.. mampus dye la… benci aq membuak2… lagipown awek dye tu.. aq btol2 xsuke.. sume org x suke.. dahla sombong nak mati.. kesopann kurang.. gedik pun ye jugak….mungkin sbb jeles aq ckp mcm neh.. tapi bukan aq sorang jer yang ckp mcm tu.. rame lagi… org sombong sape suke..
Masok sem 2… cet satu lecture ngan dye kowt dan.. satu kelas agame ngan dye.. aduyai.. bagaimana bisa begini..tapi aq maintain jela… rame member aq x berkenan gler ngan pangai dye.. so hari demi hari aq dngar dyorang berckp pasal pangai dye yang mrimaskan member aq y laen… nak backup xleh.. tolong tambh jela. Kui3…. Tambhn pule.. tbe2dye join ktorang men bdmnton.. bertambah x sang la hdup aq.. dala aq xnak ngadap dye terpkse la ngadap dye lak petang2.. haish!! Payah neh.. goyah jantung… member aq mcm x berkenan la.. tbe2 jer masok kan korang sendiri pown sush nak dapat tempt.. hari demi hari dye makin kerap datang.. aq x kesah.. nak wat cm ner… aq terpakse act cool.. aq kan ‘pro’… ini menybbkan hari2 aq akan nampk dye.. aduyai.. sush dowh.. rase dlm hati neh payah kowt.. sbb pnah rase suke.. tapi aq still maintain pro…
Ader stu hari dye mara membr aq.. bengang jugk la ktorang… pastu dye minta ma’f blek.. tyme tu tau jela muke aq memg tahp kebengangn melampau sbb dye mara membr aq.. dan wat aq x tentu arah… sampaila satu ari tu.. dye msj member aq ckp nape aq blagak.. hmm.. waktu tu.. aq rase mcm.. dye tgok gak erk kelakuan aq.. pasan rupernye… xlame slpas tu.. aq pkr2 kan gak kate2 dye tu… pada tanggl 6.1 2009.. aq hantar mesj pertama aq kat dye.. tyme tu kels agame.. dye bls dye xknal aq.. sial malu aq.. aq pown cpt2 la tarik dri.. pastu dye kate,, sory sbb dye pkai enset bru.. stat dri ari tu.. aq mule msj dye.. pade aslnye aq xnak simpan ape2 pown pasaan kat dye.. sbb aq masih kcik ati lagi pasl awek dye.. pasal ape yang pnah dye ckp kat dulu… aq mem tekad nak msj dye nak gitau aq x suke awek dye… tapi xberdaye.. aq hanye mampu ckp jer.. buat nye x gak… makin lame.. aq mule mnyimpan pasaan kat dye.. tapi aq cube deny sume tu… sbb aq tau.. siapa la aq.. dulu dye snggup tipu aq.. ade mungkin ker dye pahm pasaan aq yang aq memg syg dye… khadiran semule aq dalm hdup dye menggugat kdudukan awek dye yang sombong tu.. dye mintak aq untuk tdak slalu msj dye dlm matrik.. ok.. I accept that.. tapi nape ngan aq.. ngan pompuan len die xsuh berbuat demikian??? Musykil.. hbat sgt ah aq sampai jelesnye begitu.. aq xpernah simpn niat nak ptusk dyorang even aq tau aq suke dye.. aq hormat hbungan dye dan awek dye…
Dye gado ngan awek dye kadang2 tempiasnye kne kat aq.. aq xpnah bising.. aq dyam je.. tapi.. aper yang awek dye wat.. dye suh balak dye tu ptuskan hbungan pershbtn antare aq ngn dye.. oke2.. memg ini dah melampau.. tapi dye ikut jer ckp awek dye.. xpela.. itu bala dye.. aq bukan saper2 pown.. aq xder hak nak bantah…
Tapi yang aq kesal sbb cinta dye sngguo puts shbt.. hati aq btol2 terluka.. luka sgt… sbb memg aq dah btol syg dye.. tambhan lagi hati aq bru dilukai.. aq luahkan sgale2 nye kat dye… tapi xpe.. aq tempuh dgn redha.. perpisahan ngan dye paling getir pnah aq rase,, aq rse nak lupekan dye sush sgt,,, pedih sgt.. aq termimpi2.. terindu2… aq xtau nape…. De da byk wat aq kcik hati.. pnah wat aq benci… tapi nape aq masih ingat lagi dye.. masih syg dye.. dan nape aq jumpe dye kat cn.. dan nape aq masih ingat lagi sore dye wktu form 1 dulu hingga saat ini… aq amt peli.. adaah ini dinamaan cinta??? Berjumpe nlek stelah sekian lame trepisah??? Aq x pahm sampai skunk aq xpahm.. aq saat neh pown aq masih terbygkan dye… mngkinkah sbb aq syg dye sgt2.. ntahla.. aq xtau nape.. aq mls nak jawb… tvxq pengubat rindu aq yang lara neh.. oppa2 kesyngan aq yang mampu mngubt rindu aq.. mengubat skit aku menghadapi sgala rintangan ini.. aq tau.. mesti ade sbb pangeran buat mcm neh kat aq.. mesti ade hikmah… aq sabar je.. yang sabar slalu menang.. biala dyorang nak wat ape kat aq.. aq tau lau kte sabar kter akan dpt blasn yang stimpal.. biala…senarnya ape maksud sume neh.. aq cinta dya ka?? Aq sayang benar sama dya ka?? Aq pown x phm.. seb bek ade yunho oppa..leh aq jwab pekse ngan tenang..
Awak lau awak bace neh.. sye nak awk tau.. sye syg awk.. lebey dri awk syg awek awk..

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